Ever had one of those times when you just don't want to be yourself?
Well this is one of those times,
I miss my old friends, the way things used to be, the fun we had...
seeing all the photos from their last days of high school.. It gets to me... And here I am... whittling away the time before my 2010 exams...
Getting ready to repeat my 'final' year again next year... to be a part of the 'Class of 2011' not the 'Class of 2010' LIKE I was supposed to be.
I regret changing schools, even if at the time I thought it was the right decision...
I hate who I am and what I've become...
I've changed so much since I left... and I don't really like it.
I miss the way things were, so much... like seeing their photos brings tears to my eyes. I SHOULD have been one of the people in the photos... not just thinking.. wishing that I were with them.
I miss my best friends, I miss our conversations...
I miss my stories making their way around the year level and back... I miss being good at math... and science..
I miss wanting to be a surgeon.. or just a doctor... something better than where I'm headed.
I miss being fit, I miss being thin, I miss those stupid P.E. Lessons where we'd just muck around in the school pool...
I don't know what's up with me lately... I just feel like I've let myself down.. and there's no way to recover.
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